sosososso tired, Will update more tomorrow I promise, sorry its been so long megs:( your the only one that reads this I think:) Help me get more

Van? Readers? anyone out there?

So, its been awhile again, I am really sorry:( Remi actually has been pretty sick, First it started with Kemp having fever on friday and then remi decided to have on saturday night and still has it and its monday night... But with remi having surgery on June 8th he can not have IBU so tylenol it is, and its not working:( so last night needless ot say little Roo slept with me... and he slept better then what he does alone, and I slept to thank god.. Ive been so tired... But I got up early and got on the phone and got him and kemper into the doctor asap in the morning:) Kemper just has a sinus cold... better then having more than that.. but hes still miserable, and Remi of course has an ear infection surprise suprise :( NOT!!! but in his left ear, it was his right ear, his throat is very irritated and he has a little bit of a rash down in his diaper area which could be caused from his high temps... so tomorrow I will be calling the ENT to make sure that he will be replacing both tubes seeing as now the left one wants to become infected as well:( Its horrible watching him be in so much pain, Last night and this morning he didnt get off the couch, he just stared in a daze at the room:( or slept, hes been sleeping alot off and on, not enough to get me rest though:(

So did I tell you I got a new Van? How many of you read my blog? I wish more of people did:( if you do please comment me and let me know, I feel like I talk to myself, I am thinking of gettin rid of this:(

Anyways I got a new van, its green:) pretty:) 97 dodge grand caravan:) good shape, runs great, and only for five hundred, yes you heard it 500 bucks hehe:) i love it, the boys love it, it runs, it gives us room, its awesome...

Today I went to pick up the boys from my sisters, and my nephew was like burning up, i mean to touch him literly like burned my hands he was so warm, so i took his temp for my sister while she called the docs, it was 104 and that wasnt in the bum, that was under his arm, she took him in right away because he was breathign funny and stuff, and he has the start of phneomia, and ear infections, poor little man, he rarely gets sick... so please pray for him too

Okay Im very tireds like falling asleep doing this:( night

Allergies and goose egg haven

Wow what a long few days, sorry everyone... Everyone is doing alright except for allergies... yucky, and mommy hasnt been feeling very well with allergies, and my belly is sour the last few days.. But other than that life is awesome, my father and I are going to look at the van I purchased to be sure that our children will be alright in it...

I read yesterday that a dear little girl Ive been following on here passed away, God bless her soul, what a perfect little angel to watch over us... her journey was long, shes a figher, an inspiration to all... Ive very upset to see her not make it though, miracles were her thing, god kept blessing them with miracles, she got to spend mothers day with her mom, and the day after she passed, I feel god kept her here so her mom could spend mothers day with her... shes so beautiful...

Lets see, Kemper is gettin ready for preschool, I am pretty excited, that is if i can get all of his stuff in by the cut off time... and if we qualify for it... hes doing so well with things, learning new stuff everyday and he is full potty trained and has been for awhile now... He is wild the other day he was in the living room with his brothers blanket over his head, spinning in circles, I told him he better had stop or he will hurt himself, he just giggled and put the blanket back over his head again and started up again... next thing I hear is screaming... Yep sure enough he fell into the computer chair and ended up with a black eye and a huge goose egg on his head, so lovely, and this year he wanted his fohawk back so his auntie came and gave him his hair cut and he has it back:)

Remi hasnt been feeling very well, allergies, his ears, his chest and lungs im sure are hurting him... hes been very irriatable and hard to please lately... poor little thing... but soon enough after surgery he should feel like a totally new little man... i hope at least... they claim this surgery will help his lungs, god hope it does... last week after we went to the zoo, remi was playin around and was running feel right into a table head first, got himself a perfect size goose egg that turned black and blue now its yellow lol, and just an hour later, kemper ran to the toilet but couldnt make it to the toilet and remi went down there all of a sudden I hear wham.. remi slipped in kempers pee ewwww... and smacked his head on the tile floor, ugh... I tell you what, I cant move fast enough these days, I was headed down there when it happend, I tell you its gettin nice out, the kids get wild lol...

Robert and I are doing well, Robert is back to working, he loves his new job, and he just got his new truck and stuff yesterday so he should be ready to rock an roll this next week I am pretty stoked about that...

My grams is feeling better after surgery she is starting to come around more now... Please keep her in your prayers she is having a hard time coming out of this mess of surgerys shes had in the last two months... shes so strong... she never gives up and will talk everyone into not giving up, shes such a great person... well I know its wednesday and I wrote, but Ill have a wordless wednesday posted after this..

My good friend megs is tryin to help me learn the swing of things:)

hugs KIM

Ouchies:(

Ive had a very long day... Lets see, started about 5:00 am when my fiances alarm went off and he fails to get out of bed so I am wide awake to try and get him up.. gotta love em lol... Then I did finally fall back to sleep at like possibly 6:20 and had to be back up at 7:00am to get the boys and I ready for the zoo trip... it was so much fun, rained like crazy here in muskegon but then got better as we headed to Grand Rapids, it was not sunny but not raining, it was chilly but not freezing... remi was dressed warm enough, I had kemper in shorts, they said it was suppost to be warm.. but he didnt say a word about being cold and I didnt bring it up for I had no clothes to put him in... but we did have alot of fun, not all the animals were out yet, but we did see enough:) hehe, cant wait to go again this summer sometime...

So we get home from this trip and i get home and Kemp and Remi are playing, as I look up I see like in slow mode well so I see it in my head, Remi running and fell right into a table... I swear i seen his head hit, fly back, and then fall back down, and when he lifted it to cry I seen the instant bump and bruise, Obvisouly at this time I am already up and running for my poor little roo... get him picked up where he only cried for a matter of a min, I was worried, I would have cried forever if it were me, but he didnt... so I grabbed a uncrustable (frozen pb&j) from the freezer put it on his head and he hated that, but I was able to hold there for more then a few mins... then he wanted down, he sat down, sat there for a min looking around, then he crawled around for awhile, then he finally got up and walked and he was a little stubbly I was freaking out, watching his eyes, making sure he was breathing okay I was going nuts.. but he was okay, and then Kemp didnt make it to he toilet on time so he pee'd on the bathroom floor well remi decided he was gonna go down there (mind you before i knew kemp peed on the floor) and I hear wham whack, he fell on the slippy pee floor, hit the back of his head now on the nice tile floor, nice huh, but he is okay, i kept him awake for like 6 hours and now he is in bed sleeping peacefully and I will check on him everytime I wake up, gosh if I even do wake up, I am exhausted, but all in all we had a good day minus the ouchies:(

Tomorrow I will be back up early taking care of Carlee Jane.. my 3 week old niece for the whole day then possibly my nephew tomorrow night, I am going to be busy:( but hey at least im gettin my sleep which I better close this now so I can close my eyes:) thanks for reading... Ill get pics of the goose egg tomorrow:(

Remi surgery again:(

Remingtons appointment with the ENT was today... we got his pressure test done and sure enough remingtons right ear tube is not working properly and he will need surgery to replace it, well possibly both of them... Little roo (remington) has had drops for two weeks then I stopped them via request of doctor and he did pretty good til last night his ears started to bug him again, I was happy to get into the doctor this am with him... Doc is also going to take out his adnoids considering he is having trouble breathing as well.. Poor little roo.. but he will feel so much better, I am a little sad that he has to have surgery again, and its going to be more then just placing tubes so I am a little uneasy and scared:( but I know its for the best, and basically it has to be done... they are talking about his tonsils as well but Doc and I decided that those can wait til he is older... hes only had strep once (yes hes just turned one) but better the having it more then once... so we shall see where it brings us with the surgery he gets now... such a sweet baby boy... so other than that we have had a good day... hes gettin so big and so smart, and he scares mommy when he feels the need to stand on top of things lol... so im constantly sayin remi sit down lol...

Kemper has been extremely loud the last few days, ouch, I have no idea what his deal is lol, but his uncle ricky has been coming around more often and he is very loud lol, always being silly with the kids so i think he gets it from him, I know Im sick of the yelling, but hey hes a kid, Im alright:) mommy cant be uptight about it, as long as he is happy I am happy:)

My boys are my world, I would do anything for them... anything... anything, anything...:)

Please pray for my friend pamela, she has surgery on her knee tomorrow, Bless her... I cant make it having no car at the moment...

Robert started work today, he seemed to like it, worked a full 12 hours plus... hes tired, and has to be back out there tomorrow morning at 6, he will get used to it.. I know he will be alright... Im off to bed, thanks for letting me rant:)

Life and updates

Remingtons appointment went great on friday... they said that his breathing sounded good and that he doesnt need his treatments of pulmicort or the oral steriod anymore, but he can have his albuterol if he needs it or sounds a little wheezy again... Thank god for remington... He was really stuggling with his breathing, really got me worried.. We have had a fun weekend I suppose lol, Friday we had a full house of 11 people including the kids we had a huge pot of golosh that I made for all of us and we played Wii fit... it was so much fun... Ill post pictures here in a min lol... or at the end of this blog I should say...

Saturday I got up early and hit the some yard sales, found a little but not enough lol... came home to get the sweet boys ready for going to see my grandmother up at the hospital, bless her soul, she is having a hard time coming out of this surgery:( I wish there was something that I could do to take her pain away... Poor grams... after this we came home, and sat around and cleaned the rest of the night as a family... I was in bed by 10 pm, can you believe it lol... the boys go to bed at 9 pm so they were already in bed sleeping like babies... oh wait they are my babies lol...

Today (sunday) We are suppost to have friends over, that havent arrived yet, and we are not sure if they will arrive so I am a little uneasy... I get tired of people making plans then breaking them its not far to us... or my family, they were suppost to come over last night for dinner, todl them id wait for there call just so they could call and tell me they had already ate:( how nice... really not at all...

Robert thankfully has a job now, he starts tuesday and I can wait to get a new vehicle so I can work too... I am a little uneasy still about lettin someone watch remi but its a lady ive known a long time and trust with my life so I know I can trust her... so i cant wait for that all to happen... Our motor went out in our car, so to have a new one not to have to worry about all the time woud be awesome for me...

Our animals are doing well as well... NIENIE the dog is getting old, shes having more seizures which worry me but they say she is fine, i got her at 2 weeks of age had to bottle feed her and her lungs just havent pregressed into being fully developed so lack of oxygen causes her seizures... but shes cute as ever still... Emerson is our older cant but not over a year yet... I believe at the end of the year he will be... and crush is our orange kitten we just got, he is about 6 weeks id say, he was born March 12th... so I guess lol... hes good... gettin bigger and eating better that is for sure... anyways off to get those pictures to post on here, Ill fill you in with more later:)

First picture is Roberts brother ricky:) Uncle ricky and Kemper hula hooping lol

second picture is Ricky hula hooping alone just gettin into it

third picture is Mommy (me) Remington, kemper and auntie Jill (jill is my best friend)

fourth picture is Remi just so cute

fifth picture is Kemper holding baby carlee (carlee is one of my friends babies)

Please pray

I feel like posting, so you'll see one now and probably later... I think thats okay isnt it... Today is a little rough, Please pray for baby kayleigh and her family... they got bad news last night and is very sad I just hope that god will guide them thru this hard time ... Hoping for a miracle which I dont doubt god works in unknown ways... such a sweet little girl and family... her family is so strong..

The last few days have been kinda depressing for me, possibly weather, or could it be the reasoning for my aunt and my step dad that died a month apart to the day just a 5 years ago... My aunt passed away on March 29 5 years ago and my step dad april 29th 5 years ago... wow, seems like just yesterday and it doesnt seem to get any easier... could be cause the fact that my grandma is in the hospital this morning have surgery to remove cancer they found on a pollup in her rump... and today and lately ive been thinking about NICU... flash backs... the times we almost lost remi... Im afraid to let him out of my site... not sure if this is a natural feeling, or what... sometimes I miss the NICU.. possibly because we lived it for so long? or because of the people there? or is something not right? the other night on the 5 year of my step dad it I had a dream of being at a funeral... wasnt to sure if it was his or not, never really in my dream was it clear whos funeral it was... it was sad... I remember cryin at it... I remember having one of my boys, I cant remember which one but one of them I was carrying around the place... I know it was family for I was asked to sit up front but asked for the back due to having the child with me... things just dont seem to be going right... maybe I am a little depressed... but I dont feel like it...

Remi has a doctors appointment today, I will let you know how that goes, and I am hoping to make it up to see my grandmother after... God help her thru this all... its very heart wrenching.. she was just in the hospital not to long ago for congestive heart failure, she has already had open heart surgery they went in and put stints in, if they were unable to get those in she would have died... but they got them in, then they found the blood in stool and found the cancer in them bum... I only say it that way because to me (maybe beause i have children) it sounds better lol... anyways thats it, Im off to shower and get my boys ready for doctors... thanks for listening...