Please pray

I feel like posting, so you'll see one now and probably later... I think thats okay isnt it... Today is a little rough, Please pray for baby kayleigh and her family... they got bad news last night and is very sad I just hope that god will guide them thru this hard time ... Hoping for a miracle which I dont doubt god works in unknown ways... such a sweet little girl and family... her family is so strong..

The last few days have been kinda depressing for me, possibly weather, or could it be the reasoning for my aunt and my step dad that died a month apart to the day just a 5 years ago... My aunt passed away on March 29 5 years ago and my step dad april 29th 5 years ago... wow, seems like just yesterday and it doesnt seem to get any easier... could be cause the fact that my grandma is in the hospital this morning have surgery to remove cancer they found on a pollup in her rump... and today and lately ive been thinking about NICU... flash backs... the times we almost lost remi... Im afraid to let him out of my site... not sure if this is a natural feeling, or what... sometimes I miss the NICU.. possibly because we lived it for so long? or because of the people there? or is something not right? the other night on the 5 year of my step dad it I had a dream of being at a funeral... wasnt to sure if it was his or not, never really in my dream was it clear whos funeral it was... it was sad... I remember cryin at it... I remember having one of my boys, I cant remember which one but one of them I was carrying around the place... I know it was family for I was asked to sit up front but asked for the back due to having the child with me... things just dont seem to be going right... maybe I am a little depressed... but I dont feel like it...

Remi has a doctors appointment today, I will let you know how that goes, and I am hoping to make it up to see my grandmother after... God help her thru this all... its very heart wrenching.. she was just in the hospital not to long ago for congestive heart failure, she has already had open heart surgery they went in and put stints in, if they were unable to get those in she would have died... but they got them in, then they found the blood in stool and found the cancer in them bum... I only say it that way because to me (maybe beause i have children) it sounds better lol... anyways thats it, Im off to shower and get my boys ready for doctors... thanks for listening...