Well yesterday wasnt as fun as I expected... when things go wrong they go wrong... First our car, then our friends car we were borrowing, and now we have nothing til the fiance can find a job... yes I can find a job, but with not having a vehicle its kinda hard and easier for him for he is a truck driver that doesnt usually require using a car everyday, and I care of our children whether he is home or not, I do everything... Times are rough right now but when arent they, im kinda relieved all at once that we have no way to get anywhere with that swine sickness going around, if i dont go out, we wont get it... right? yikes its scary...

On another note we are all doing well... Remington seems to be okay with his meds now... still got the poos, but Ive been just tryin to keep his electrolites up, he goes in on friday and I will have them check his sugar at this point, he doesnt seem to be going down but he has been awefully tired and not his spunky self so much... he hates his breathing treatments which is making it hard to give him every 4 hours and big treatments twice a day, i try to do it all when he is sleeping easier that way... I love my boys more then anything... Remington likes to fall asleep in my bed with me at night, no, we dont cuddle and I dont hold him, he is on his side im on mine, he just likes to lay in there and go to sleep... yes, he will go to sleep in his own bed, momma just likes to lay with her little roo at points... hes such a good boy...

Kemper been asking lately to go to bed, that amazes me because he never would, he would go all day long without a nap if i let him... must be his age, he knows he needs it or something, but momma likes naps too so that helps me... the kids have been sleeping perfect, its the cat and kitten that have been fighting all night, our cat wants to eat the kitten, I dont know why, or what is going on, but I am losing sleep over cats lol... Help me... lately little crush our orange kitten has been sleeping with us to try an avoid emerson our big gray cat from eating him, or at least going after him... such silly cats lol...

me? myself Ive been exhausted... very... cant see to catch up, I have so much to do, and so little time to do it... remis room is going to be worked on this weekend:) its going to be Fire engine red... with one wall being the back of a fire engine and the other wall is going to be the front of a fire engine... it might be hard but we will find help in gettin these drawn up and painted on the walls...

sorry I dont seperate my paragraphs sometimes, I hardly have enough time to write so I just try to do it fast and long lol...

My friend will be having her baby here soon... I get to finally witness a natural birth... I have yet to witness or see one so its about time... I missed my friend Marlas by like a minute i was bummed and actually almost made me cry:( I just want to see it and pref a friend not a stranger... I mean its not that im watching down there im watchin life down there, so yeah... anyway tabs is gettin ready to have hers, and I better not miss it lol, but when my children call I have no choice... my boys are more important...

remi goes in for his check up tomorrow and then next tuesday. friday we will see how his breathing and lungs are doing and tuesday we will find out if he needs surgery again and if so when and how serious will it be... fill you in later

Also I need to thank my friend Jill for always being here for us, shes been a big help and is very good at what remingtons needs are, its nice to be able to leave him with someone and not worry if someone will know what to do if he crashes with his sugar problems, or breathing problems, shes such a great friend and I love her for that and all she does:) she doesnt have any kids and still takes alot of her time to hang out here with me and my kids...

Sorry before I go I have to vent... Why in the world are mothers killing there children? I watch HLN with nancy grace everynight, and once again a mother killed her 18 month old... I just cant believe my eyes, and they basically are lettin these mothers get away with it... Kill them... they killed there children, kill them, better yet, make them sit in prison til they die.. make them suffer... its nuts to have an other option... when I became pregnant with kemper, my party days stopped, these kids are my responsibilty and I will not push them on a sitter every weekend or every day so I can go out and party, I know so mothers that do and they shouldnt have had kids if they dont want to settle down and be a mother... just makes me sick these girls are gettin away with it:(